Forecast for the Future

"Every individual without exception bears a potential writer within himself. The reason is that everyone has trouble accepting the fact that he will disappear unheard of and unnoticed in an indifferent universe, and everyone wants to make himself into a universe of words before it's too late. 

Once the writer in every individual comes to life (and that time is not that far off), we are in for an age of universal deafness and lack of understanding."

- Milan Kundera, The Book of Laughter and Forgetting

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Week 11, Day 4: Approaching Regularity

The official Night 4 Sleep Report
--Went to bed: 10:41 pm
--Sleep music: Julee Cruise, Floating Into the Night
--Fell asleep: approx. 11:14 pm
--First wakeup: 5:11 am
--Subsequent wakeups: 6:08 am, 6:30 am, 6:38 am, 6:46 am (last three with alarm clock)
--Out of bed/wide-awake: 6:48 am
--Total sleep period (counting brief wake-ups): 7 hrs, 34 min

My first "regular" night of sleep, basically. Only two pre-alarm wakeups and, thank god, the first one didn't come until 5:11 am. Granted, I still felt wide awake when I came to, but it was nice to roll over and check the clock and not see that it was 2:30 am. And then, after falling back asleep, only one more pre-alarm wakeup--and strangely enough, I needed the alarm three times before I was able to rouse myself out of bed. Maybe tonight I'll sleep all the way through the point I'm ready to get up tomorrow morning. Thinking about trying to get up at 5 just to see what that's like.

I might carry this chart over into next week or beyond just to see how quickly everything gets fucked again, perhaps a preventive measure of self-conscious acknowledgement as to the way in which I allow myself to backslide toward unhealthiness.

Unofficial Post-Sleep Day 3 (Wednesday) Daytime Report
Another workday "bursting with energy." Experiencing more fully the good and bad realization of just how much of a difference it makes me for me to be able to go to work and be rested, as far as productivity goes, making the day go by faster, and feeling more generally connected to whatever's going on (which, by the way, is somehow no less depressing).

I will say that for sure I can now identify "Important Hyperliving Lesson #2", after CONQUERING FEAR, which is TIME MANAGEMENT. As nice as it is to make it through a work-day without getting tired, the 10pm bedtime window has made me acutely aware of how poorly I manage my time, in nearly all of my activities. How do people do it? Focus and sustained concentration are such struggles for me, and I think if I had to go to bed at 10 every night I would feel literally crushed by my inability to get all the things done I'd like (or need) to accomplish in the limited hours of each day. Obviously I would learn to do things better than I have, but nonetheless I can't imagine how I could possibly do it all. Blah--another lesson of ways to improve myself wrapped into hope, fear, and worry.

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